favorite season!

I love winter. Living on an island, I don't get to experience it very often LOL but I do occasionally visit places that experience the snow and everything during christmas time. I just love the idea of winter, especially because of all the cute winter clothes I get to wear. Also the idea of just nestling near a fireplace while drinking hot coco sounds heavenly. Winter just seems very magical almost, with the whole santa claus thing and the presents and how everybody, even the grumpiest person, is friendly. Everyone becomes nicer, more generous, happier. I want to walk through one of those snow covered lanes at night and see how beautiful everything is. I wanna wake up christmas morning to see snowfall outside my house. I want to buy cute winter boots with a matching scarf and jacket. I want to go sledding with people down a little hill, have a snowball fight, make a snowman and snow angels.  I want to go snowboarding or skiing and get some nice hot noodles after.After a long day out in the snow, I want to go to a nice sauna and defrost myself and relax.
All these things just make the winter season seem so amazing. the snow, the activities, the little snow animals like polar bears are SO CUTE >_______________<
one time i had a dream that it snowed in saipan and i lived on mt tapachao and had a log cabin and everyone played around in the snow and when the snow melted it turned into a river and everyone swam in it. IT WAS AWESOME.

Dear Mom,

You've always been my hero. I know I've been a brat for the past 18 years, but you love me unconditionally anyway. You love to spoil me and you always put me ahead of yourself. Even if you come home from work in the middle of night, really tired, you still make me a snack or a really late dinner AND you put it away. You're a very hard worker and you have all these dreams for me to achieve. I just want to tell you now, i don't think i'm ever going to become a doctor, too much math and science. But I do promise to try hard in being successful in what I want to do. I'll make lots of money one way or another and i'll help out my cousins in the Philippines with going to school and all that. 
I remember one time I accidentally got bit by our dog and you freaked out, you were so worried. Even the most mediocre things, you always worry about and you're always trying to protect and treat me like i'm still a baby. You always love giving me everything that you never had, and I really appreciate you loving me through every single thing. Even when you were alone in raising me, you didn't give up. Now that i'm older I realize how lucky I really am, having you for a mom. No matter how angry you make me and vice versa, you're always the top of my list and i'll always love you more than anything. 
Thank you for everything you've done for me and someday i hope i'll be able to repay you. 


love, shane.

if i could only listen to one song....

I would go crazy. like seriously, that is like one of my nightmares. All i can imagine is me sitting in a white room, with no exits, by myself and one song plays over and over and over again. I would literally go insane.  I don’t care if it’s the best song in the world, too much of a good thing is always bad. I’ll get tired of it really easily. 

Here are the steps towards insanity:

1. enjoying it, happy.
2. being enthusiastic (trying not to let it phase me)
3. sing to it, and dance around it to
4. slowly get annoyed with it
5. analyze every part of the song
6. at this point i’d know every detail of the song
7. start covering my ears
8. start singing something ELSE to distract myself
9. scream
10. bang on the walls 
11. beg for silence
12. curl up in fetal position
13. begin frothing at the mouth.

 Besides even if i was absolutely forced to choose i wouldnt be able to, i don’t really have favorite songs i like a lot all at the same time. It really depends on my mood and what not. Here are a list of songs I like: One Thing, Marry You, Marry me, Safe&Sound, Strip, Pretty girls, Alot of things by Nicki Minaj like superbass, I also like songs similar to Angels of the Moon. It’s filled with meaning and emotion and it really appeals to me. If i die young is also meaningful. especially the line “its funny when we’re dead how people start listening.” <-- its true. I also like Marshmallow, it’s such a cute song! I like a lot of party songs like Outta your mind, hip swing, Cheers, drop it low, drop it like its hot, Bottoms up, Party Rock Anthem, etc. 

and yeah! that’s pretty much it. 

Graduation!!!!! May 19.

OMG i am SO excited for graduation. I'ts sad because its the end of highschool for us BUT that means we get to get out of school WAYYYYY early. it's gonna be awesome XDDDDD. We're also gonna have a graduation afterparty at a hotel, our options so far are CK beach hotel or Marianas resort. We're having our graduation at World Resort this year which is a first. usually we have it at the AMP theater but its much too small for our class. We get to invite up to 25 people each so it should be a pretty big crowd. Its going to be on May 19, that's a saturday and we'll be wearing blue gowns and such. My mom's coming in from the states. So far the people on my invite list are: my mom, dad, stepmom, Raffy, angelo, michael, emily, maricel and her baby, also mike and his parents are going to be invited. I think i'm also going to invite the arevnoskis just cuz they're a family friend, and i'll probably invite Kristle too since we've gotten pretty close. Everyone else I would invite is graduating with me.  anyway yeah im pretty excited for that, especially for the after party. i'm planning it to make up for the sucky ass after prom party we had. 

Ideal Spouse

 My ideal spouse would be someone that is successful, smart, humorous, hard working, thoughtful, and caring. Successful in not just money or work, but in being happy and achieving all of his goals in life.  Smart not just academically, but in decision-making as well. I want him to have a sense of humor, especially in times when i'll need smiles to cheer me up. Hard working in that he'll never give up on what he starts, and he will work hard to earn his way up in life. Thoughtful in that, he won't forget, in the middle of all his working, about me and maybe once in a while surprising me with flowers or spontaneously taking me out somewhere. Caring so that he'll know when i have a bad day and is willing to listen maybe even give some advice or just to comfort me when I need it the most. 
My ideal spouse isn't based on appearance, but it does affect my decision of course. I also want someone that wouldn't smother me all the time. Someone i can joke around with and poke fun at each other. I don't want him telling me how much he loves me every second of the day, i want conversations about stupid stuff. 


the end.

Congratulations: You've won a million dollars! (no taxes)

What would i do with a million dollars. Well without all the taxes i could do a couple things with it. I would first and foremost pay for college expenses since college is a such a bitch. I would help out family in the philippines, my cousins who are living poorly. i would pay for their education and supplies and clothes and food. I would definitely treat them. I would also give some to my boyfriend for college, so he can come with me instead of going into the airforce T____T. I would then turn the rest of the money into bussiness and make MORE money out of it. Then i'd pay my parents back and give some money to my siblings for THEIR college funds and all that stuff. i would then proceed to shop til i drop in all the shops i want. forever 21, chanel, hot topic, dolce&gabana, gucci.

i dont think this bill actually exists. and i heard a million dollars would probably be only a briefcase full of money, not really like a truckload like what they make it out to be in the movies.

My favorite accent

British accents are sexy.
 i love them. Especially this boy group called one direction. They have british accents except for Niall, he's irish. They're all very cute and their songs are super  catchy. The british accent makes them more appealing to everybody especially those who don't have one, like me. British accents make everything seem so proper, while american accents make everything seem derogatory. Although its not exactly "exotic" its still cooler than plain old american. British accents seem so regal and when someone is acting all fancy they automatically have a british accent. Anyway back to 1D they're SO ADORBS. i really love Harry most of all. he has curly hair and blue eyes 0___0. so pretty. He has a really nice deep voice too and of course, a british accent. IT JUST MAKES HIM TEN TIMES COOLER.
My second favorite accent would be something sexy, like spanish or italian. So exotic man, like if an ugly italian girl was talking to me on the phone i would think she's some sort of sex goddess. But a lot of italian/ spanish people are super pretty anyway. There was this car commercial where this guy was walking and there was a girl bending over on this empty parking space and her dress was kinda fluttering and the girl looks up and starts scolding him for staring in spanish and the guy was all mezmerized because of how pretty she was and how exotic her accent was lol it ends up that he was just imagining the whole thing and the girl was actually a car.

Motto for my life

My motto for life is to be happy. happiness is key to being happy. without happiness you cannot be happy. happy derives from the word happiness. happiness equals to joy and elated feeling. happy is a common name for clowns who create happiness through balloon animals. WEEE ARE YOUNGGGG SO LETS SET THIS WORLD ON FIREEEEEEEE, MAKE IT BRIGHTERRRRR THAN THE SUUUUUUUUUuuuuuuuuuUUUUUUuuuun. this song is representative of what fun is. setting worlds on fire is fun. being young is fun. making a world brighter than the sun is fun. and that rhymed.
Opposite of happiness is sadness. Sadness can be found in different math classes, AP classes, or just school in general (mostly High School). Another key to happiness could be love. love for family, for someone else, for a pet, an inanimate object, or for yourself. Loving yourself will help you be a healthier happier person and will make people want to be with you and get to know you. SO BE HAPPY. that's my motto.
also hakuna matata which is from lion king. that movie makes me happy <3 LOVE ITTTTT.

My Perfect Holiday

I envision my perfect holiday to happen during a snowy winterland. I kind of imagine it somewhere where I said I wanted to have my honeymoon at. I just love the idea of winter, with the hot cocoa, and snuggling under warm blankets, going sledding, buying all the cute winter clothes, relaxing next to a fire. It all sounds so awesome!! I've been to snow before in Japan for skiing but its never fun cuz we almost never really get to relax or just go sightseeing. I wanna be in a little cozy cottage place but the inside is modern. There would be an amazing amusement park near by where I can just walk to. The car service would be horse carriages and you can go for midnight rides through the empty snowy street.

All my friends could go with me and we'd go in for free. There would be hot springs conveniently placed near my cottage. A hot cocoa glass would automatically refill itself as well as with other beverages. The whole house would look completely natural yet be super high-tech. The bed would warm itself, the fire would start up and die down, the shower would provide shampoo, soap, and conditioner and I want one of those talking toilets that close the lid on its own. The TV would have all the shows and movies and I could just tell it to play something and it would play. 

Yeahhhh, that would be awesome.

Free: THE MUSICALLLLL

okay so the SIS musical is coming up and I am pretty darn excited for it! Let me give you guys a little bit of a background on this.
SIS musicals happen every year towards the end of the school year (usually in the 4th quarter). There's always a different theme to it, and everyone in the school participates from pre-k to 12th grade. (Our school is quite small so this only adds up to about 200 + people.) ANYWAY so THIS years theme is a talent show/ glee kinda deal.  Last year's musical theme was disney, and the year before that i think was ABBA. Usually for the musicals we have each class perform a song or two (singing and dancing) and they would sing along to the music, but that wasn't very musical-ish because there was no REAL singing being done. SO for last year and this year we've had auditions for lead parts of the musical. You can audition for a song that a certain class has and while they dance to it, you sing the song. I was going to audition last year but I was way too scared and made up excuses of why I couldn't. T__T
THIS YEAR, is my senior year, so i of course just HAD to audition. I decided to audition for four songs: valerie, lady is a tramp, walking on sunshine, we found love. I was really excited for valerie because it wasn't such a high song and i knew i could pull it off better than the other ones. Also, it was an ensemble, meaning it didn't belong to a class, it was a free for all song. and there was only one lead. I was SUPERRRR nervous for auditions of course, i love the idea of spotlight but i'm terrified of it in reality. My friends were quite supportive of me and even sang background for valerie while I auditioned. They seemed to really like me and I was pretty happy with my performance. Walking on sunshine i did with my sister and we wanted to do a dance with it. bad idea. we messed up cuz we were so nervous D: we found love was alright but i knew they wouldn't like me with the song cuz im more of an alto. Lady is a tramp is the opening song and also an ensemble. I auditioned for it with my brother doing the guy part, i did the song well except for the really high parts (this is the lady gaga version). I knew I had a slim chance of getting it especially cuz two other girls, (though their voices aren't as strong) are able to hit the high notes. So I just held hope for valerie, which is the ONE song I really wanted because my only other competition for it said some mean things about me saying things like "why did she sign up? she cant sing those songs". So that was a definite motivation for me to get it so I could show her up and it was even better when she signed up. It was basically me against her for that song.
Callbacks came and I had one for valerie and so did she. I also got callbacks for walking on sunshine, and another song that I didn't audition for (rhythm of love). The sheet said that lady is a tramp was closed and at that time me and my brother were the only ones who auditioned so we thought we already got it but then they made some changes and opened it up to a couple girls they thought would fit better. (booooo!). When my time came to do Valerie, I was determined to get it, I sang it the best I knew how. At the end they were all clapping and saying "wow" which was pretty awesome. Next I had to do lady is a tramp one more time and I still couldn't hit the high notes very well. Then I auditioned for rhythm of love with another girl and they pretty much gave it to us because they said my voice was low and it fit well with the music and we sounded good together for the chorus.
As for Lady is a Tramp I am happy to say that my brother got the boy part, but they replaced me with someone else -__- (bastards).
but thats okay, CUZ I GOT VALERIEEEEEEEEEE.
spotlight on me baby. already made up dance moves :).

what is good?

GOOD can be defined in various ways. Depending on a particular situation, "good" can be a shady concept. Good becomes shady in times of war when killing is a regular thing. Good in a simple sense can be defined as a person helping an old lady walk across the street, simply because he wants to help. Not because he will get money out of it. I guess the best way to define good is to know what bad is. Bad can closely relate to evil, such as doing something negative to someone without reason. Hurting an innocent animal for no reason is 'bad'. Helping out an innocent animal is 'good'. The contrast of the two words help define each other and help people understand them much more clearly. When a man gives a helpless starving child his sandwhich that he was saving for lunch, knowing that he has dinner to look forward to later is something that is 'good'. Ignoring the child and eating it anyway isn't necessarily bad, but it isn't good either.  People can define good based on certain beliefs they have, or what they were taught growing up. For example a lot of people base their beliefs on religion. The most logical beliefs of good only need common sense.

How do we make decisions?

WELLLLLLLLL, hmmmmmmm decisions are based on many different things. Decisions can be based on the adrenaline that a person has or the pressure of the moment. Sometimes they're based on looks, talent or what's best for the situation. Decisions, good or bad, have to be made in important moments like during a war, or an engagement. For example how do you know whether to say yes or no to a man who proposes to you? well the first and foremost thing is your feelings. If you're absolutely sure you love him then the decision leans to a yes. Second is more logical, does he treat you right, does he respect you, is he capable of supporting you and your future children? Usually people go with the first influence (feeling) to make their decision and none of the logical stuff seem to matter. Another example is forgiveness. Should you forgive someone that has hurt you in the past? A lot of people hold a grudge and never forgive someone that has wronged them. Some people do forgive but they will never forget. It really depends on the depth of 'wrong' the person has done.

hey its free!

it's a free topic today for journalism class so i'm going to talk about what i would do if i had 25 billion dollars. I imagine myself winning this at some HUGE lottery thing once i move to the states several months from now. i'll be that lucky one person >__< IT'S GONNA BE SO AWESOME. all my lifes worries will be pretty much solved. I would still of course go to college and pursue a degree, i would be able to pay for all my college expenses and not even make a dent in my billions :3. I would help out my lovebug with his college expenses too since he wants to stay with me and go to the states for college too but his parents won't support it :/. THEN, i would give my mom and dad like 3 million dollars each and give each of my siblings 30 thousand for their college savings. AND THENNN i would go to the philippines and visit all of my cousins. First i would go to the ones who are much poorer and live in the province. They literally live in a shack, so i would move them into a nicer house and renovate it so that its pretty and homey. then i would take them to the mall a couple hours away outside of where they live and buy them all new clothes and shoes and i would pay for my youngest cousins education, she's like 9 years old. After that I would go to my OTHER cousins who are also poor, and move them into a nice condo where they can each have their own rooms and stuff like that. I'm closest with my cousin Mae. we grew up together and she always got my hand-me-downs so if i got all that money i would definitely take her and even her brothers on a shopping spree. After all of that is taken care of, i would go back to the states balance college and of course since i wouldn't have to work so much for money I would go ahead and pursue my dreams of modeling/acting and hopefully make something out of myself. Maybe after my second year of college i'll start living on my own in a SUPER nice apartment and its gonna be so fancy and i'm gonna have this super awesome convertible car.

Sigh. That'll be the day.

advertising: Information or manipulation?

I can't exactly say if advertising is informational or manipulative because it is dependent on many different variables. For example: what kind of advertising is it? the way a particular piece of advertisement is portrayed is based on its content and the way it is written. An "informational" advertisement would of course contain information on the particular subject that is being advertised and opinions, biased or not, are excluded completely. Manipulative advertisement would include biased opinions and deceiving factors. This can also be labeled as "false advertisement".
Example of Informational advertisement:
Smoking cigarettes can cause lung cancer.
now this is proven by fact and can't exactly be argued against. Also by saying "can" it is open and no restrictive, meaning to say it is not the ONLY cause of lung cancer and also it is not the only thing that smoking can do to you.

Example of Manipulative advertisement:
If you buy this lotion, you will look 10 years younger, guaranteed!
now this is something that people can easily give in to and is completely manipulative. It is very unlikely that a bottle of lotion can make a 20 year old look like they're 10 again.
Even if it did somewhat work, the advertisement said 10 years guaranteed, so "somewhat" isn't good enough.

honeymoon :o

There are SO many beautiful places I could choose to go to for my honeymoon and I have narrowed it down to my top two places.

Baros hotel in Maldives: Tropical location and basically the hotel is on the water. its SUPERRRR pretty. and you go into these huts and basically you can just jump from your room into the ocean. the rooms are top notch, and look very comfortable yet classy. The water is a clear blue and you definitely have a lot of privacy. And as if the ocean isnt big enough to swim in, they also have a pool villa. which is more on land rather than being on the ocean itself. The hotel offers up two lighthouses with, of course, an ocean view. ITS REALLY COOL OMFG. I would SOO not mind going there for a honeymoon, or ANY occasion.

My next ideal honeymoon would be somewhere cold and snowy. There are some great hotels in new zealand or switzerland that offer luxurious ski resort type places. I want to be in one of those places where you can basically just ski off from ur porch or something. I want it to have lots of privacy, great spa facilities and some hot springs. 

My favorite high school memory

I have a lot of great high school memories and i cant really choose one. I have a lot of hilarious moments with all my friends inside and outside of school. I can't even count how many times i've laughed so hard at the dumbest things my friends said or did. They're all precious memories to me. I've had different opportunities in high school, much of them embarrassing and i don't really wanna go into that -___-.
I guess my most favorite memory in high school (and this is just from the top of my head) was valentines day my junior year, where I received flowers and chocolates from my current boyfriend "James". His name isn't really james but my teacher for some reason started calling him that. It was very sweet of him and was a pleasant thing to see in the morning. Only two other boys who aren't related to me whatsoever have gotten me flowers before, one of them was in second or third grade. Anyway, along with the flowers and chocolate, he gave me a cute little teddybear holding a heart that said "Everyday is valentines, only with you" it was THE cutest thing ever and it smelled like him too. (and it was a good smell). Afterschool he came by and gave me this chocolate rose, it was awesome.
and that's about it for my favorite memory i guess LOL.
THEEEE ENDDDD

Romantic..?

the three most romantic phrases i've heard. that's a tough one T_T  i really can't think up of them from the top of my head so here are some really random ones:

1) I will always love you (whitney houston RIP)
2) i'll never let go, jack.
3) thou art more lovely and more temperate

k there. lol.

Yumms

One of my absolute favorite dishes is Sinigang. It is a famous filipino dish that I have grown up eating. Sinigang is basically a soup with pork inside and some kang kong which is a type of vegetable. You usually eat Sinigang with rice. You pour the soup all over the rice and then mix it in with the pork and the kang kong. The pork in this instance is pure meat, no bones or skin. It has a nice tangy flavor that you'll want to savor in your mouth. It has a bit of a sour edge to it and the pork and kang kong go very well with the soup itself. There are many variations of Sinigang such as shrimp and other meats.

Ingredients:

• 3/4 kilo Pork, cut into chunks
• 3 tomatoes, sliced
• 2 onions, diced
• 5 cloves of garlic, minced
• 100 grams Kangkong (river spinach)
• 100 grams String beans
• 2 pieces horse radishes, sliced
• 3 pieces gabi (taro), pealed
• 2 pieces sili pag sigang (green finger pepper)
• 200 grams sampalok (tamarind)
• 3 tablespoons of patis (fish sauce)
• 1 liter of rice wash or water
  
  
  How to cook:
  
  

  • Boil sampalok in water until the shell shows cracks. Let cool then peal off the shells and with a strainer, pour samplalok (including water) into a bowl. Gently massage the sampalok meat off the seeds, strain again.
  • In a pot, sauté garlic and onion then add the tomatoes. Let simmer for 5 minutes.
  • Add pork and fish sauce then add the rice wash. Bring to a boil then simmer for 15 minutes then add the gabi. Continue to simmer for another 15 minutes or until the pork is tender.
  • Add the horse radish and simmer for 10 minutes then add the string beans, kangkong and sili (for spice-optional). Let boil for 2 minutes.
  • Serve piping hot.

Six things

What are six things I would teach my children? I'm not going to put these things into order because I believe the there is more than just one "most important" thing to teach a child. So in no particular order the things I would teach my children would be respect, honesty, independence, compassion, happiness, and reality.
Respect: this is one of the more common virtues a child should learn. Not only should one learn to respect others but he/she must learn to respect themselves and keep this in mind especially going into young adulthood. There are many influences a child can go through during their teen years (and even before teen years). The idea of respect to adults, to someone else's property, and to yourself is essential to growing up, maturing and essential to having self-confidence.
Honesty: without this, life would be filled with uncertainty. Trust would cease to exist. I would teach my children honesty by being honest with them. I would teach them to be honest with their feelings, honest with their peers, etc. I will show them that honesty can lead to good things, and though sometimes it is hard to be honest about negative things that you've done. I will teach them to remember that it is not honesty that gets the consequences but the action itself.
Independence: Growing up I was completely dependent on my mother, she did everything for me including cooking my food, showering me, waking me up, down to taking off my socks after school. Of course I want my children to always need me for something but I want them to grow up knowing their full capabilities. I want them to learn to cook food ( or at least heat them up), to do their own laundry, clean after themselves. All these things that will help better prepare them in the future.
Compassion: I think that this virtue is quite important in shaping a person. Compassion for other humans and animals link to kindness and selflessness and that's what i want my children to be. I want them to have big hearts and learn how to love things and help them. I want them to be aware of their fortunes and others who lack it. I want them to appreciate all that they will have and to be grateful.
Happiness: this one's a bit tricky. You can't exactly teach someone happiness in a classroom through lectures. But you can definitely show it. Happiness doesn't mean a fancy car or an expensive laptop. Happiness doesn't mean going to harvard on a full ride scholarship or winning millions of dollars in a lottery (though I wouldn't mind any of those things at all). Real happiness comes from something you do that you're compassionate about. Whether its something like singing or dancing, or simply having a family of your own. Having a happy life means your with people that you love or pursuing something that you love.
Reality: Life isn't all cupcakes and butterflies. Reality isn't a pretty picture and I want to make sure my kids know that. I would love to keep their naivity but eventually someones got to teach them the rights and wrongs of this world and i'd rather it be me. I will show them that not everyone is a compassionate, or honest, or respectful person. That life will have many bumps in the road and they will feel defeated more times than they would remember but the lesson is to not dwell on it too much and that life goes on and they must live it the best that they can.

These are all the things that me and my future husband would work hard to teach our children. These and much much more. Life is full of lessons, some of it pleasant and some of it are hard. We will teach them the best that we can and someday, i hope that they will be grateful for it.

Toothbrush & Toothpaste : greatest invention

The toothbrush was originally invented in 3000BC which was a stick with a frayed end called a chew stick. THANK GOD.
What would the world be without a toothbrush and some toothpaste? Everyone would have yellow, rotting teeth. Morning breath wouldn't just be in the morning. Breakfast, Lunch, AND dinner would be stuck on your teeth, all day, everyday. The average rate of losing your teeth would probably be before you're even in puberty. That's just nasty. I mean how would people be able to even stand kissing each other without wanting to puke? But then i guess the foul from their own mouths and someone elses combined cancels out the smell. Or it just makes them so used to it that they don't even notice.
YOCKKKKKKK.
The Toothbrush and Toothpaste are truly great inventions, in that they help maintain a good hygiene and prevent teeth from rotting. Also strong teeth open a wider range of foods a person can consume that can give them a much greater option of healthy nutritious food and fun enjoyable foods instead of just eating liquified gunk all the time.
I just can't imagine without grimacing a world where people smile with their gums. their UNHEALTHY, blackened gums o.O.
So that's pretty much it. thats why i think that the worlds GREATEST invention is the toothbrush and toothpaste. Without it, we'd all have bad breath XD