favorite season!

I love winter. Living on an island, I don't get to experience it very often LOL but I do occasionally visit places that experience the snow and everything during christmas time. I just love the idea of winter, especially because of all the cute winter clothes I get to wear. Also the idea of just nestling near a fireplace while drinking hot coco sounds heavenly. Winter just seems very magical almost, with the whole santa claus thing and the presents and how everybody, even the grumpiest person, is friendly. Everyone becomes nicer, more generous, happier. I want to walk through one of those snow covered lanes at night and see how beautiful everything is. I wanna wake up christmas morning to see snowfall outside my house. I want to buy cute winter boots with a matching scarf and jacket. I want to go sledding with people down a little hill, have a snowball fight, make a snowman and snow angels.  I want to go snowboarding or skiing and get some nice hot noodles after.After a long day out in the snow, I want to go to a nice sauna and defrost myself and relax.
All these things just make the winter season seem so amazing. the snow, the activities, the little snow animals like polar bears are SO CUTE >_______________<
one time i had a dream that it snowed in saipan and i lived on mt tapachao and had a log cabin and everyone played around in the snow and when the snow melted it turned into a river and everyone swam in it. IT WAS AWESOME.

Dear Mom,

You've always been my hero. I know I've been a brat for the past 18 years, but you love me unconditionally anyway. You love to spoil me and you always put me ahead of yourself. Even if you come home from work in the middle of night, really tired, you still make me a snack or a really late dinner AND you put it away. You're a very hard worker and you have all these dreams for me to achieve. I just want to tell you now, i don't think i'm ever going to become a doctor, too much math and science. But I do promise to try hard in being successful in what I want to do. I'll make lots of money one way or another and i'll help out my cousins in the Philippines with going to school and all that. 
I remember one time I accidentally got bit by our dog and you freaked out, you were so worried. Even the most mediocre things, you always worry about and you're always trying to protect and treat me like i'm still a baby. You always love giving me everything that you never had, and I really appreciate you loving me through every single thing. Even when you were alone in raising me, you didn't give up. Now that i'm older I realize how lucky I really am, having you for a mom. No matter how angry you make me and vice versa, you're always the top of my list and i'll always love you more than anything. 
Thank you for everything you've done for me and someday i hope i'll be able to repay you. 


love, shane.

if i could only listen to one song....

I would go crazy. like seriously, that is like one of my nightmares. All i can imagine is me sitting in a white room, with no exits, by myself and one song plays over and over and over again. I would literally go insane.  I don’t care if it’s the best song in the world, too much of a good thing is always bad. I’ll get tired of it really easily. 

Here are the steps towards insanity:

1. enjoying it, happy.
2. being enthusiastic (trying not to let it phase me)
3. sing to it, and dance around it to
4. slowly get annoyed with it
5. analyze every part of the song
6. at this point i’d know every detail of the song
7. start covering my ears
8. start singing something ELSE to distract myself
9. scream
10. bang on the walls 
11. beg for silence
12. curl up in fetal position
13. begin frothing at the mouth.

 Besides even if i was absolutely forced to choose i wouldnt be able to, i don’t really have favorite songs i like a lot all at the same time. It really depends on my mood and what not. Here are a list of songs I like: One Thing, Marry You, Marry me, Safe&Sound, Strip, Pretty girls, Alot of things by Nicki Minaj like superbass, I also like songs similar to Angels of the Moon. It’s filled with meaning and emotion and it really appeals to me. If i die young is also meaningful. especially the line “its funny when we’re dead how people start listening.” <-- its true. I also like Marshmallow, it’s such a cute song! I like a lot of party songs like Outta your mind, hip swing, Cheers, drop it low, drop it like its hot, Bottoms up, Party Rock Anthem, etc. 

and yeah! that’s pretty much it. 

Graduation!!!!! May 19.

OMG i am SO excited for graduation. I'ts sad because its the end of highschool for us BUT that means we get to get out of school WAYYYYY early. it's gonna be awesome XDDDDD. We're also gonna have a graduation afterparty at a hotel, our options so far are CK beach hotel or Marianas resort. We're having our graduation at World Resort this year which is a first. usually we have it at the AMP theater but its much too small for our class. We get to invite up to 25 people each so it should be a pretty big crowd. Its going to be on May 19, that's a saturday and we'll be wearing blue gowns and such. My mom's coming in from the states. So far the people on my invite list are: my mom, dad, stepmom, Raffy, angelo, michael, emily, maricel and her baby, also mike and his parents are going to be invited. I think i'm also going to invite the arevnoskis just cuz they're a family friend, and i'll probably invite Kristle too since we've gotten pretty close. Everyone else I would invite is graduating with me.  anyway yeah im pretty excited for that, especially for the after party. i'm planning it to make up for the sucky ass after prom party we had. 

Ideal Spouse

 My ideal spouse would be someone that is successful, smart, humorous, hard working, thoughtful, and caring. Successful in not just money or work, but in being happy and achieving all of his goals in life.  Smart not just academically, but in decision-making as well. I want him to have a sense of humor, especially in times when i'll need smiles to cheer me up. Hard working in that he'll never give up on what he starts, and he will work hard to earn his way up in life. Thoughtful in that, he won't forget, in the middle of all his working, about me and maybe once in a while surprising me with flowers or spontaneously taking me out somewhere. Caring so that he'll know when i have a bad day and is willing to listen maybe even give some advice or just to comfort me when I need it the most. 
My ideal spouse isn't based on appearance, but it does affect my decision of course. I also want someone that wouldn't smother me all the time. Someone i can joke around with and poke fun at each other. I don't want him telling me how much he loves me every second of the day, i want conversations about stupid stuff. 


the end.

Congratulations: You've won a million dollars! (no taxes)

What would i do with a million dollars. Well without all the taxes i could do a couple things with it. I would first and foremost pay for college expenses since college is a such a bitch. I would help out family in the philippines, my cousins who are living poorly. i would pay for their education and supplies and clothes and food. I would definitely treat them. I would also give some to my boyfriend for college, so he can come with me instead of going into the airforce T____T. I would then turn the rest of the money into bussiness and make MORE money out of it. Then i'd pay my parents back and give some money to my siblings for THEIR college funds and all that stuff. i would then proceed to shop til i drop in all the shops i want. forever 21, chanel, hot topic, dolce&gabana, gucci.

i dont think this bill actually exists. and i heard a million dollars would probably be only a briefcase full of money, not really like a truckload like what they make it out to be in the movies.

My favorite accent

British accents are sexy.
 i love them. Especially this boy group called one direction. They have british accents except for Niall, he's irish. They're all very cute and their songs are super  catchy. The british accent makes them more appealing to everybody especially those who don't have one, like me. British accents make everything seem so proper, while american accents make everything seem derogatory. Although its not exactly "exotic" its still cooler than plain old american. British accents seem so regal and when someone is acting all fancy they automatically have a british accent. Anyway back to 1D they're SO ADORBS. i really love Harry most of all. he has curly hair and blue eyes 0___0. so pretty. He has a really nice deep voice too and of course, a british accent. IT JUST MAKES HIM TEN TIMES COOLER.
My second favorite accent would be something sexy, like spanish or italian. So exotic man, like if an ugly italian girl was talking to me on the phone i would think she's some sort of sex goddess. But a lot of italian/ spanish people are super pretty anyway. There was this car commercial where this guy was walking and there was a girl bending over on this empty parking space and her dress was kinda fluttering and the girl looks up and starts scolding him for staring in spanish and the guy was all mezmerized because of how pretty she was and how exotic her accent was lol it ends up that he was just imagining the whole thing and the girl was actually a car.